第5章 流淌在心底的思念 (5)
看 了 肖 像 和 卡 片 之 后 ， 她 的 态 度 整 个 儿 变 了 。 她 从 椅 子 上 蹦 起 来 ， 把 卡 片 递 给 我 看 ， 让 我 的 兄 弟 把 画 面 对 面 地 挂 到 壁 炉 上 方 。她 向 后 退 了 几 步 ， 看 了 好 长 一 会 ，然 后 她 迅 速 转 过 身 来 ， 眼 睛 亮 闪 闪 的 ， 她 泪 水 盈 眶 而 又 笑 容 灿 烂 地 说 道 ： “我 就 知 道 圣 诞 节 爸 爸 会 和 我 们 在 一 起 的 ！”
我 看 着 礼 品 卡 上 爸 爸 的 手 迹 。 “妈 妈 ——女 儿 提 醒 了 我 是 多 么 有 福 气 。 我 将 永 远 凝 视 着 你 ——爸 爸 。 ”
The Missed Blessings 错过的祝福
A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer’s showroom， and knowing his father could well afford it， he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached， the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally， on the morning of his graduation， his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son， and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious， but somewhat disappointed， the young man opened the box and found a lovely leather-bound Bible， with the young man’s name embossed in gold. Angrily， he raised his voice to his father and said， “With all your money you give me a Bible？” He then stormed out of the house， leaving the Bible.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and a wonderful family， but realizing his father was very old， he thought perhaps he should go to see him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make the arrangements， he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away， and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things.
When he arrived at his father’s house， sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search through his father’s important papers and saw the still new Bible， just as he had left it years ago. With tears， he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he was reading， a car key dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer’s name， the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation， and the words... “PAID IN FULL”.
How many times do we miss blessings because they are not packaged as we expected？ Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not； but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.
Sometimes we don’t realize the good fortune we have or we could have because we expect “the packaging” to be different. What may appear as bad fortune may in fact be the door that is just waiting to be opened.
从前，有位年轻人即将大学生毕业。数月来，他一直渴望得到某汽车商产品陈列室中的一辆跑车。他知道，他那富有的父亲肯定买得起这辆车，于是，他便跟父亲说他很想得到那辆漂亮的跑车。
在毕业典礼即将来临的日子里，年轻人等待着父亲买下跑车的消息。终于，在毕业典礼那天上午，父亲将他叫到自己的书房，并告诉他，有他这么出色的儿子自己感到非常自豪而且非常爱他这个儿子。接着，父亲递给儿子一个包装精美的礼品盒。年轻人感到好奇，但带着些许失望地打开礼品盒，却发现里面是一本精美的精装本《圣经》，上面以金子凸印着年轻人的名字。看罢，年轻人怒气冲冲地向父亲大喊道：“你有那么多钱，却只给我一本《圣经》？”说完，便丢下《圣经》，愤怒地冲出房子。
多年以后，年轻人已事业有成。他拥有一所漂亮的房子，一个温馨的家庭。但当得知父亲年事已高，他想，或许应该去看看他。自从毕业那天起他就一直不见父亲。就在起程时，他收到一封电报——父亲已逝世，并已立下遗嘱将其所有财产转给儿子。他要立即回父亲家处理后事。
在父亲的房子里，他突然内心感到一阵悲伤与懊悔。他开始仔细搜寻父亲的重要文件，突然发现了那本《圣经》——还跟几年前一样崭新。他噙着泪水打开《圣经》并一页一页地阅读着。忽然，从书的背面掉出一把钥匙。钥匙上挂着一个标签，上面写着一个汽车经销商的名字——正是他曾渴望的那辆跑车的经销商。标签上还有他的毕业日期及“款已付清”的字样。
我们多少次与祝福擦肩而过，仅仅因为他们没有按我们想象中的样子包装好？不要在渴望得到没有的东西时损坏你已经拥有的东西；要记住一点：你现在所拥有的恰恰正是你曾经一心渴望得到的。
有时，我们并没有意识到我们已经拥有或本该拥有的好运，仅仅因为它的外表与我们想象中的有所不同。其实，表面上看起来像是坏运气的东西或许正是等待开启的幸运之门。
Love Is Too Short While Forgotten Is Too Long爱情太短，遗忘太长
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write， for example， “the night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.”
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her， and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me， sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes？
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her.
To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night， still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her，
The night is starry and she is not with me.
This is all.
In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her， and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We， of that time， are no longer the same.
I no longer love her， that’s certain， but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another’s. She will be another’s. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice， her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her， that’s certain， but maybe I love her.
Love is so short， forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.
今夜我可以写下最哀伤的诗句。
写，譬如， “夜镶满群星，
而星星遥远地发出蓝光并且颤抖。”
夜风在天空中回旋并低唱。
今夜我可以写下最哀伤的诗句。
我爱她，而且有时她也爱我。
如同今晚的夜，我曾拥她入怀，
在无尽的天空下一遍又一遍地吻她。
她爱我，有时我也爱她。
怎会不爱上她那沉静的双眼
今夜我可以写下最哀伤的诗句。
去想我并不拥用她，
感觉我已失去她。
去聆听广阔的夜，因没有她而更加广阔。
诗句坠入我的灵魂，如同露水落在牧草上。
我的爱若不能拥有她又会怎样？
群星满夜，而她不在我身边。
这就是一切了。
远处有人在唱着歌。那么远。
我的空虚是因为没有她。
我的目光搜寻她，想要把她拉近；
我的心寻找她，而她并没有和我在一起。
相同的夜让相同的树木泛白。
彼时，我们也不再相似如初。
我不再爱她，这是确定的，但我曾多爱她。
我的声音试着循风来抚摸她的听觉。
别人的。她将会是别人的。如同她曾接受的我的千吻。
她的声音，她洁白的身体，她无尽的双眼，
我不再爱她，这是确定的，但也许我还爱她。
爱情太短，遗忘太长。
借着如同今晚的夜，我曾拥她入怀。
我的灵魂因失去了她而失落。
这是她最后一次让我承受的伤痛；
而这些，便是我为她而写的最后的诗句。
Call With The Love让爱相随
In the unconscious
We had already mutually known to mutually love so many days