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I immediately consider'd that this must be some Ship in Distress，and that they had some Comrade，or some other Ship in Company，and fir'd these Guns for Signals of Distress，and to obtain Help：I had this Presence of Mind at that Minute，as to think that though I could not help them，it may be they might help me；so I brought together all the dry Wood I could get at hand，and making a good handsome Pile，I set it on Fire upon the Hill；the Wood was dry，and blaz'd freely；and though the Wind blew very hard，yet it burnt fairly out；that I was certain，if there was any such Thing as a Ship，they must needs see it，and no doubt they did；for as soon as ever my Fire blaz'd up，I heard another Gun，and after that several others，all from the same Quarter；I ply'd my Fire all Night long，till Day broke；and when it was broad Day，and the Air clear'd up，I saw something at a great Distance at Sea，full East of the Island，whether a Sail，or a Hull，I could not distinguish，no not with my Glasses，the Dna was so great，and the Weather still something haizy also；at least it was so out at Sea.

I look'd frequently at it all that Day，and soon perceiv'd that it did not move；so I presently concluded，that it was a Ship at an Anchor，and being eager，you may be sure，to be satisfy'd，I took my Gun in my Hand，and run toward the South Side of the Island，to the Rocks where I had formerly been carry'd away with the Current，and getting up there，the Weather by this Time being perfectly clear，I could plainly see to my great Sorrow，the Wreck of a Ship cast away in the Night，upon those concealed Rocks which I found，when I was out in my Boat；and which Rocks，as they check'd the Violence of the Stream，and made a kind of Counter-stream，or Eddy，were the Occasion of my recovering from the most desperate hopeless Condition that ever I had been in，in all my Life.

Thus what is one Man's Safety，is another Man's Destruction；for it seems these Men，whoever they were，being out of their Knowledge，and the Rocks being wholly under Water，had been driven upon them in the Night，the Wind blowing hard at E. and E.N.E：Had they seen the Island，as I must necessarily suppose they did not，they must，as I thought，have endeavour'd to have sav'd themselves on Shore by the Help of their Boat；but their firing of Guns for Help，especially when they saw，as I imagin'd，my Fire，fill'd me with many Thoughts：First，I imagin'd that upon seeing my Light，they might have put themselves into their Boat，and have endeavour'd to make the Shore；but that the Sea going very high，they might have been cast away；other Times I imagin'd，that they might have lost their Boat before，as might be the Case many Ways；as particularly by the Breaking of the Sea upon their Ship，which many Times obliges Men to stave，or take in Pieces their Boat；and sometimes to throw it over-board with their own Hands：Other Times I imagin'd，they had some other Ship，or Ships in Company，who upon the Signals of Distress they had made，had taken them up，and carry'd them off：Other whiles I fancy'd，they were all gone off to Sea in their Boat，and being hurry'd away by the Current that I had been formerly in，were carry'd out into the great Ocean，where there was nothing but Misery and Perishing；and that perhaps they might by this Time think of starving，and of being in a Condition to eat one another.

As all these were but Conjectures at best；so in the Condition I was in，I could do no more than look on upon the Misery of the poor Men，and pity them，which had still this good Effect on my Side，that it gave me more and more Cause to give Thanks to God who had so happily and comfortably provided for me in my desolate Condition；and that of two Ships Companies who were now cast away upon this part of the World，not one Life should be spar'd but mine：I learn'd here again to observe，that it is very rare that the Providence of God casts us into any Condition of Life so low，or any Misery so great，but we may see something or other to be thankful for；and may see others in worse Circumstances than our own.

Such certainly was the Case of these Men，of whom I could not so much as see room to suppose any of them were sav'd；nothing could make it rational，so much as to wish，or expect that they did not all perish there；except the Possibility only of their being taken up by another Ship in Company，and this was but meer Possibility indeed；for I saw not the least Signal or Appearance of any such Thing.

I cannot explain by any possible Energy of Words，what a strange longing or hankering of Desires I felt in my Soul upon this Sight；breaking out sometimes thus；O that there had been but one or two；nay，or but one Soul sav'd out of this Ship，to have escap'd to me，that I might but have had one Companion，one Fellow-Creature to have spoken to me，and to have convers'd with！ In all the Time of my solitary Life I never felt so earnest，so strong a Desire after the Society of my Fellow-Creatures，or so deep a Regret at the want of it.

There are some secret moving Springs in the Affections，which when they are set a going by some Object in view，or be it some Object，though not in view，yet rendred present to the Mind by the Power of Imagination，that Motion' carries out the Soul by its Impetuosity to such violent eager embracings of the Object，that the Absence of it is insupportable.

Such were these earnest Wishings，That but one Man had been sav'd！ O that it had been but One！ I believe I repeated the Words，O that it had been but One！ A thousand Times；and the Desires were so mov'd by it，that when I spoke the Words，my Hands would clinch together，and my Fingers press the Palms of my Hands，that if I had had any soft Thing in my Hand，it wou'd have crusht it involuntarily；and my Teeth in my Head wou'd strike together，and set against one another so strong，that for some time I cou'd not part them again.