第69章 THE NINTH - THE THIRD VISION(13)

"No one else can," she answered."I'm--I'm grown up.""Even if it hurts?"

"To live is to be hurt somehow," she said."This--This--" She flashed her love.She intimated by a gesture that it is better to be stabbed with a clean knife than to be suffocated or poisoned or to decay....

Scrope turned his eyes to the young man again.He liked him.He liked the modelling of his mouth and chin and the line of his brows.He liked him altogether.He pronounced his verdict slowly.

"I suppose, after all," he said, "that this is better than the tender solicitude of a safe and prosperous middleaged man.

Eleanor, my dear, I've been thinking to-day that a father who stands between his children and hardship, by doing wrong, may really be doing them a wrong.You are a dear girl to me.

I won't stand between you two.Find your own salvation." He got up."I go west," he said, "presently.You, I think, go east.""I can assure you, Sir," the young man began.

Scrope held his hand out."Take your life in your own way," he said.

He turned to Eleanor."Talk as you will," he said.

She clasped his hand with emotion.Then she turned to the waiting young man, who saluted.

"You'll come back to supper?" Scrope said, without thinking out the implications of that invitation.

She assented as carelessly.The fact that she and her lover were to go, with their meeting legalized and blessed, excluded all other considerations.The two young people turned to each other.

Scrope stood for a moment or so and then sat down again.

For a time he could think only of Eleanor....He watched the two young people as they went eastward.As they walked their shoulders and elbows bumped amicably together.

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Presently he sought to resume the interrupted thread of his thoughts.He knew that he had been dealing with some very tremendous and urgent problem when Eleanor had appeared.Then he remembered that Eleanor at the time of her approach had seemed to be a solution rather than an interruption.Well, she had her own life.She was making her own life.Instead of solving his problems she was solving her own.God bless those dear grave children! They were nearer the elemental things than he was.That eastward path led to Victoria--and thence to a very probable death.The lad was in the infantry and going straight into the trenches.

Love, death, God; this war was bringing the whole world back to elemental things, to heroic things.The years of comedy and comfort were at an end in Europe; the age of steel and want was here.And he had been thinking--What had he been thinking?

He mused, and the scheme of his perplexities reshaped itself in his mind.But at that time he did not realize that a powerful new light was falling upon it now, cast by the tragic illumination of these young lovers whose love began with a parting.He did not see how reality had come to all things through that one intense reality.He reverted to the question as he had put it to himself, before first he recoguized Eleanor.Did he believe in God? Should he go on with this Sunderbund adventure in which he no longer believed? Should he play for safety and comfort, trusting to God's toleration? Or go back to his family and warn them of the years of struggle and poverty his renunciation cast upon them?

Somehow Lady Sunderbund's chapel was very remote and flimsy now, and the hardships of poverty seemed less black than the hardship of a youthful death.

Did he believe in God? Again he put that fundamental question to himself.

He sat very still in the sunset peace, with his eyes upon the steel mirror of the waters.The question seemed to fill the whole scene, to wait, even as the water and sky and the windless trees were waiting....

And then by imperceptible degrees there grew in Scrope's mind the persuasion that he was in the presence of the living God.

This time there was no vision of angels nor stars, no snapping of bow-strings, no throbbing of the heart nor change of scene, no magic and melodramatic drawing back of the curtain from the mysteries; the water and the bridge, the ragged black trees, and a distant boat that broke the silvery calm with an arrow of black ripples, all these things were still before him.But God was there too.God was everywhere about him.This persuasion was over him and about him; a dome of protection, a power in his nerves, a peace in his heart.It was an exalting beauty; it was a perfected conviction....This indeed was the coming of God, the real coming of God.For the first time Scrope was absolutely sure that for the rest of his life he would possess God.Everything that had so perplexed him seemed to be clear now, and his troubles lay at the foot of this last complete realization like a litter of dust and leaves in the foreground of a sunlit, snowy mountain range.

It was a little incredible that he could ever have doubted.

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It was a phase of extreme intellectual clairvoyance.Amultitude of things that hitherto had been higgledy-piggledy, contradictory and incongruous in his mind became lucid, serene, full and assured.He seemed to see all things plainly as one sees things plainly through perfectly clear still water in the shadows of a summer noon.His doubts about God, his periods of complete forgetfulness and disregard of God, this conflict of his instincts and the habits and affections of his daily life with the service of God, ceased to be perplexing incompatibilities and were manifest as necessary, understandable aspects of the business of living.

It was no longer a riddle that little immediate things should seem of more importance than great and final things.For man is a creature thrusting his way up from the beast to divinity, from the blindness of individuality to the knowledge of a common end.