第14章 BOOKS WHICH HAVE INFLUENCED ME(3)

I should never forgive myself if I forgot THE EGOIST.It is art, if you like, but it belongs purely to didactic art, and from all the novels I have read (and I have read thousands)stands in a place by itself.Here is a Nathan for the modern David; here is a book to send the blood into men's faces.

Satire, the angry picture of human faults, is not great art;we can all be angry with our neighbour; what we want is to be shown, not his defects, of which we are too conscious, but his merits, to which we are too blind.And THE EGOIST is a satire; so much must be allowed; but it is a satire of a singular quality, which tells you nothing of that obvious mote, which is engaged from first to last with that invisible beam.It is yourself that is hunted down; these are your own faults that are dragged into the day and numbered, with lingering relish, with cruel cunning and precision.A young friend of Mr.Meredith's (as I have the story) came to him in an agony.'This is too bad of you,' he cried.'Willoughby is me!' 'No, my dear fellow,' said the author; 'he is all of us.'

I have read THE EGOIST five or six times myself, and I mean to read it again; for I am like the young friend of the anecdote - I think Willoughby an unmanly but a very serviceable exposure of myself.

I suppose, when I am done, I shall find that I have forgotten much that was most influential, as I see already I have forgotten Thoreau, and Hazlitt, whose paper 'On the Spirit of Obligations' was a turning-point in my life, and Penn, whose little book of aphorisms had a brief but strong effect on me, and Mitford's TALES OF OLD JAPAN, wherein I learned for the first time the proper attitude of any rational man to his country's laws - a secret found, and kept, in the Asiatic islands.That I should commemorate all is more than I can hope or the Editor could ask.It will be more to the point, after having said so much upon improving books, to say a word or two about the improvable reader.The gift of reading, as I have called it, is not very common, nor very generally understood.It consists, first of all, in a vast intellectual endowment - a free grace, I find I must call it - by which a man rises to understand that he is not punctually right, nor those from whom he differs absolutely wrong.He may hold dogmas; he may hold them passionately;and he may know that others hold them but coldly, or hold them differently, or hold them not at all.Well, if he has the gift of reading, these others will be full of meat for him.They will see the other side of propositions and the other side of virtues.He need not change his dogma for that, but he may change his reading of that dogma, and he must supplement and correct his deductions from it.A human truth, which is always very much a lie, hides as much of life as it displays.It is men who hold another truth, or, as it seems to us, perhaps, a dangerous lie, who can extend our restricted field of knowledge, and rouse our drowsy consciences.Something that seems quite new, or that seems insolently false or very dangerous, is the test of a reader.

If he tries to see what it means, what truth excuses it, he has the gift, and let him read.If he is merely hurt, or offended, or exclaims upon his author's folly, he had better take to the daily papers; he will never be a reader.

And here, with the aptest illustrative force, after I have laid down my part-truth, I must step in with its opposite.

For, after all, we are vessels of a very limited content.

Not all men can read all books; it is only in a chosen few that any man will find his appointed food; and the fittest lessons are the most palatable, and make themselves welcome to the mind.A writer learns this early, and it is his chief support; he goes on unafraid, laying down the law; and he is sure at heart that most of what he says is demonstrably false, and much of a mingled strain, and some hurtful, and very little good for service; but he is sure besides that when his words fall into the hands of any genuine reader, they will be weighed and winnowed, and only that which suits will be assimilated; and when they fall into the hands of one who cannot intelligently read, they come there quite silent and inarticulate, falling upon deaf ears, and his secret is kept as if he had not written.