第4章 II(1)

I DON'T know how it is best to put this thing down--whether it would be better to try and tell the story from the beginning， as if it were a story； or whether to tell it from this distance of time， as it reached me from the lips of Leonora or from those of Edward himself.

So I shall just imagine myself for a fortnight or so at one side of the fireplace of a country cottage， with a sympathetic soul opposite me. And I shall go on talking， in a low voice while the sea sounds in the distance and overhead the great black flood of wind polishes the bright stars. From time to time we shall get up and go to the door and look out at the great moon and say： "Why， it is nearly as bright as in Provence！" And then we shall come back to the fireside， with just the touch of a sigh because we are not in that Provence where even the saddest stories are gay.

Consider the lamentable history of Peire Vidal. Two years ago Florence and I motored from Biarritz to Las Tours， which is in the Black Mountains. In the middle of a tortuous valley there rises up an immense pinnacle and on the pinnacle are four castles--Las Tours， the Towers. And the immense mistral blew down that valley which was the way from France into Provence so that the silver grey olive leaves appeared like hair flying in the wind， and the tufts of rosemary crept into the iron rocks that they might not be torn up by the roots.

It was， of course， poor dear Florence who wanted to go to Las Tours. You are to imagine that， however much her bright personality came from Stamford， Connecticut， she was yet a graduate of Poughkeepsie. I never could imagine how she did it--the queer， chattery person that she was. With the far-away look in her eyes--which wasn't， however， in the least romantic--I mean that she didn't look as if she were seeing poetic dreams， or looking through you， for she hardly ever did look at you！--holding up one hand as if she wished to silence any objection--or any comment for the matter of that--she would talk. She would talk about William the Silent， about Gustave the Loquacious， about Paris frocks， about how the poor dressed in 1337， about Fantin-Latour， about the Paris-Lyons-Mediterranée train-deluxe， about whether it would be worth while to get off at Tarascon and go across the windswept suspension-bridge， over the Rhone to take another look at Beaucaire.

We never did take another look at Beaucaire， of course--beautiful Beaucaire， with the high， triangular white tower， that looked as thin as a needle and as tall as the Flatiron， between Fifth and Broadway--Beaucaire with the grey walls on the top of the pinnacle surrounding an acre and a half of blue irises， beneath the tallness of the stone pines， What a beautiful thing the stone pine is！ . . .

No， we never did go back anywhere. Not to Heidelberg， not to Hamelin， not to Verona， not to Mont Majour--not so much as to Carcassonne itself. We talked of it， of course， but I guess Florence got all she wanted out of one look at a place. She had the seeing eye.

I haven't， unfortunately， so that the world is full of places to which I want to return--towns with the blinding white sun upon them；stone pines against the blue of the sky； corners of gables， all carved and painted with stags and scarlet flowers and crowstepped gables with the little saint at the top； and grey and pink palazzi and walled towns a mile or so back from the sea， on the Mediterranean， between Leghorn and Naples. Not one of them did we see more than once， so that the whole world for me is like spots of colour in an immense canvas. Perhaps if it weren't so I should have something to catch hold of now.

Is all this digression or isn't it digression？ Again I don't know. You， the listener， sit opposite me. But you are so silent. You don't tell me anything. I am， at any rate， trying to get you to see what sort of life it was I led with Florence and what Florence was like. Well， she was bright； and she danced. She seemed to dance over the floors of castles and over seas and over and over and over the salons of modistes and over the plages of the Riviera--like a gay tremulous beam， reflected from water upon a ceiling. And my function in life was to keep that bright thing in existence. And it was almost as difficult as trying to catch with your hand that dancing reflection. And the task lasted for years.

Florence's aunts used to say that I must be the laziest man in Philadelphia. They had never been to Philadelphia and they had the New England conscience. You see， the first thing they said to me when I called in on Florence in the little ancient， colonial， wooden house beneath the high， thin-leaved elms--the first question they asked me was not how I did but what did I do. And Idid nothing. I suppose I ought to have done something， but I didn't see any call to do it. Why does one do things？ I just drifted in and wanted Florence. First I had drifted in on Florence at a Browning tea， or something of the sort in Fourteenth Street， which was then still residential. I don't know why I had gone to New York； I don't know why I had gone to the tea. I don't see why Florence should have gone to that sort of spelling bee. It wasn't the place at which， even then， you expected to find a Poughkeepsie graduate. I guess Florence wanted to raise the culture of the Stuyvesant crowd and did it as she might have gone in slumming. Intellectual slumming， that was what it was. She always wanted to leave the world a little more elevated than she found it. Poor dear thing， I have heard her lecture Teddy Ashburnham by the hour on the difference between a Franz Hals and a Wouvermans and why the Pre-Mycenaean statues were cubical with knobs on the top. I wonder what he made of it？ Perhaps he was thankful.