第12章 FOR CONSCIENCE'SAKE(6)
In the presence of Mr.Millborne they at first suppressed their anguish.But by and by their feelings got the better of them,and when he was asleep in his chair after dinner Mrs.Millborne's irritation broke out.The embittered Frances joined her in reproaching the man who had come as the spectre to their intended feast of Hymen,and turned its promise to ghastly failure.
'Why were you so weak,mother,as to admit such an enemy to your house--one so obviously your evil genius--much less accept him as a husband,after so long?If you had only told me all,I could have advised you better!But I suppose I have no right to reproach him,bitter as I feel,and even though he has blighted my life for ever!'
'Frances,I did hold out;I saw it was a mistake to have any more to say to a man who had been such an unmitigated curse to me!But he would not listen;he kept on about his conscience and mine,till Iwas bewildered,and said Yes!...Bringing us away from a quiet town where we were known and respected--what an ill-considered thing it was!O the content of those days!We had society there,people in our own position,who did not expect more of us than we expected of them.Here,where there is so much,there is nothing!He said London society was so bright and brilliant that it would be like a new world.It may be to those who are in it;but what is that to us two lonely women;we only see it flashing past!...O the fool,the fool that I was!'
Now Millborne was not so soundly asleep as to prevent his hearing these animadversions that were almost execrations,and many more of the same sort.As there was no peace for him at home,he went again to his club,where,since his reunion with Leonora,he had seldom if ever been seen.But the shadow of the troubles in his household interfered with his comfort here also;he could not,as formerly,settle down into his favourite chair with the evening paper,reposeful in the celibate's sense that where he was his world's centre had its fixture.His world was now an ellipse,with a dual centrality,of which his own was not the major.
The young curate of Ivell still held aloof,tantalizing Frances by his elusiveness.Plainly he was waiting upon events.Millborne bore the reproaches of his wife and daughter almost in silence;but by degrees he grew meditative,as if revolving a new idea.The bitter cry about blighting their existence at length became so impassioned that one day Millborne calmly proposed to return again to the country;not necessarily to Exonbury,but,if they were willing,to a little old manor-house which he had found was to be let,standing a mile from Mr.Cope's town of Ivell.
They were surprised,and,despite their view of him as the bringer of ill,were disposed to accede.'Though I suppose,'said Mrs.
Millborne to him,'it will end in Mr.Cope's asking you flatly about the past,and your being compelled to tell him;which may dash all my hopes for Frances.She gets more and more like you every day,particularly when she is in a bad temper.People will see you together,and notice it;and I don't know what may come of it!'